Remember whose you are

Does anyone else ever feel unworthy, defeated, exhausted and ready to give up? I hope I am not the only one. For those out there who are going through the same thing and feeling these same emotions and are feeling burn out, I have some encouragement for you. It truly amazes me how God knows us so well that He knows how to talk to us in a way we will understand and for me that is horses. I invite you into this little journey I went on with God and I pray it speaks to your heart as well!

I was downstairs having a moment. You know one of those moments where you feel totally defeated and overwhelmed and underwhelmed and anxious all at the same time and you can’t even really put your finger on why you are feeling this way or how you got to this point. That’s where I was. I can’t really say that there was this big thing I was trying to work through or anything, it was just me feeling exhausted with life. I felt spent. I felt like I had been thrown into a blender and tossed around for a while. I felt like I had given all I had to give and was done. I don’t know if anyone else is feeling like this right now either but it sure was hitting me.

I was sitting on the floor and threw my hands in the air and just cried out to God and asked Him, what else can I possibly do? You know I’m only human, right God? You realize I can’t do what you can? I can’t carry the weight of this world like you can, and honestly it is getting exhausting trying to. It was in that moment of deep surrender that He spoke to my soul and reminded me who I am. He spoke sweetly into my heart that I am royal and that I have royal bloodlines. At first, I was a little shocked because I have not been feeling so royal these days. I have been feeling defeated and battered and worn down and flat out tired, of everything. The world we live in right now is exhausting and I just was feeling it. So, when I heard him speak these words to me at first it didn’t register, and it honestly felt like a fake compliment of sorts. You know those compliments someone gives you when they feel bad for you or they know you’re sad so they try to cheer up. I know they mean well, but you don’t really take it to heart in the moment. It’s like it just kind of bounces off. Well, yeah, you can see what kind of mind set I was in because I actually thought God couldn’t be talking to me. So, it bounced off at first. But as the day went on I couldn’t help but to keep thinking of it. Royalty. Huh? Royal. That’s weird… I’m not royal I came from a small town in the Midwest I think God must have me mistaken for someone else. He couldn’t possibly be thinking of me. Maybe He accidentally spoke to me. But still the thought wouldn’t leave me. He called me royal. Like a queen? I heard myself ask internally. Then I shook it off, nah that can’t be. I’m no queen. Here I am in pajamas and no make up and slippers, that’s not for me. But again, it came up. Royal…I could hear that small voice in me begin to wonder what did He mean?

It was lunch time for the horses, so I walked up to the barn to feed them when the revelation began to form in my mind. It’s like horses. Yes! Just like a horse’s bloodline, or their pedigree. When we buy horses, we have papers for that specific horse that shows a long pedigree or family tree of sorts of the horse’s bloodlines. You get to see their dam (mom) and sire (dad) and great grandparents and great, great grandparents on both sides. The amazing thing is you can most often predict the success of a horse based off their bloodlines. If you know the stallion (dad), that gives you great insight into who this horse might be and the success they could have. Or maybe you know their great grandma and you know what outstanding success she had in her career and hope maybe this horse could be just like her. Either way the bloodlines of a horse can give you great insight into who that horse is and who they can become. Some people will look for foals from specific stallions or specific mares all because of the traits they have, and they hope they can reproduce the wonderfulness of them in their offspring.

It was all coming together for me. I may not know royalty as far as kings and queens go, but horses make sense to me. It just kept going. Then I see my beautiful horse named Magique (Magic) nicker to me as I’m walking to the barn, and I realize who she is. She is the granddaughter of my beloved horse show horse PKH Fiesta Magique, who helped me accomplish all my horse show dreams and then some. We truly conquered the world together! She was hugely successful at everything she did. She was athletic into her late years and could do anything and everything you asked of her. She was talented and I was blessed to have her. She had an amazing son who we kept a stallion so we could have more foals just like her. For years and years, I watched silently as baby horses were born from her son. They were all beautiful, but none were just like her. Some had her gorgeous head or beautiful legs or attitude or her athletic ability or her coloring, but none of them had it all. Until this little filly came around who was a spitting image of her grandma. We named her Magique Dreams in honor of her relation to her grandma. When I met that little spit fire all I saw was her grandma flowing through her veins. She has the exact same attitude, coloring, athletic abilities, intelligence, and demeanor. She is her grandmother’s granddaughter through and through. I didn’t get to raise her, but eventually she came back into my life when I needed her most. The year I lost her beloved grandmother, baby Magic came back into my life. Once I got her we began our journey together. Figuring out who were and how we fit in this world. We had some rough times and disagreements, but what ALWAYS stuck in my mind was I knew whose she was. She was PKH Fiesta Magique’s granddaughter and therefore I knew what she could do, and I knew the potential and the capabilities she had within her. Here she was standing in front of me reminding me of the exact same thing. I know who she is because I know her family. It changes everything when you know who you came from and you know who your family is. Think about this. People don’t even have to know the heirs to the throne, because they know who they belong to. You don’t question who is going to be king of England. Nope, because you know who he belongs to, that is his birthright. They know who their family is, and they know who they belong to. It all made sense now.

I am royal not because of who I am, but who I belong to. I have royal bloodlines and have royalty running through me because of whose I am. I belong to the highest King. I belong to the greatest and most royal kingdom of all. I am heir to the throne because I know who my father in Heaven is and He knows my name. So, it’s okay on those days when we fall down and we forget who we are or we feel so unworthy, because we have a father who loves us more than that. He knows who we are, and He knows who we belong to and what we can do. He even knows what we were created to do. He knows all our strengths and weaknesses. He knows every hair on your head. We come from a long line of royalty. Whose name is the most known name of all time? Jesus Christ. And guess what? You are related to him. He is your family. His name is on your pedigree. You have a royal pedigree. Without trying, you are royal. We don’t have to know who we are as long as we know whose we are. All we have to know is who we belong to. We have to know what He is capable of doing and who He is capable of becoming and then we will know our potential as well. We don’t have to try and be something, it is already ours, it is our birthright from the kingdom of Heaven, all we have to do is believe it! All we have to remember is who our bloodlines can be traced back to, and every single one of us has the blood of Jesus Christ flowing through our veins. He died on the cross and rose again and sent his Holy Spirit to live within us so that each of us had Jesus living within us. Every single one of us was created in the image of our Heavenly Father. We were created with all the perfect aspects of who He is. Just like when I watched and watched for the perfect foal to be born and I recognized her as soon as she was; that’s exactly how our Heavenly Father feels about each and every one of you. He watched as you were perfectly created with a little of this and a little of that part of him, to create the perfect masterpiece that you are, and when you came out He was so pleased He couldn’t wait to share you with the world. You, my friends are wonderfully and perfectly made in who you are. So, when we get discouraged or beat down or tired or feel unworthy… just remember whose you are and the royalty you have flowing within you! I might even challenge you to believe it, because you my dear, are royal!

With much love,

Kaley